Day Thirteen. Okay, little man, this day was terrible for me. I have been warned...and told...and cautioned... that little set backs are going to happen. BUT I didn't believe it, okay maybe more like I didn't want to believe it. Ugh! On my way to our morning CARES visit, which I don't think I have explained yet--I will do that in the next post, I got a call from your nurse. Again, IT IS THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD TO BE CALLED FROM NICU. I think my heart stops every time I see it's them. She told me that you had a very bad night, you weren't tolerating your feedings, and your belly was super hard. They decided to stop feedings for now, but because of this, you had to have IVs put back in. Yep, not one, but two! One to collect labs and one to pump you full of nutrients so you don't get dehydrated. I asked her if we would be able to do Skin to Skin, and she didn't recommend it, because you weren't tolerating them changing your diaper. When I hung up the phone--I just drove. I was so distraught! I called Daddy sobbing, because this was just so hard for me. We decided that from now on the nurses would call Daddy first and then Daddy can call me. I don't know how long that will last, but it really stresses me out. I will get through this, I will. Anyway, the doctors ended up doing x-rays on your belly. You're little bowels were all full of air. They said this is common in preemies, but because of the situation they have to be very cautious. If you have bowel problems, this can cause leakage and infection into the other parts of your body and cause serious issues. However, this could be just as simple as an intolerance to some of the additives to your milk. (Which I will explain further in a future post as well) It so hard sometimes in the medical world when you have to wait for things to be ruled out and for our bodies to just naturally heal, and Mommy isn't a super patient woman, but you'll learn that as you get older. After talking with Daddy we decided that I would let you rest for the morning and go check on you for afternoon cares. You were the fussiest I have ever seen you, you were throwing a tantrum and turning yourself all around. I was so sad for you handsome boy. The nurse that evening let me bath you (with a sponge) and you instantly calmed down. I would love to think it's because you knew I was there, but whatever the reason, you seemed a little more peaceful. The nurse let me hold you swaddled up and you just looked into my eyes, it was a beautiful moment we shared. I was so glad to share it with you. Later that evening, after I left, I was checking the webcam to see how you were doing. There was a little message for me on there that you were sucking on your pacifier and doing a little better. Again, so thankful for technology.
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